Fire?

I'm not one to do multiple posts in one sitting (as it is I don't blog as often) but this really calls for a second post. As I was blogging the previous post, I noticed voices from my window (which faces the palm oil plantation behind my humble abode) and so I peered out the window. To my surprise, I noticed the stupid expatriate workers burning their garbage again but the flames were quite large this time. There were neighbours making noise about the burning (took them long enough to notice). I watched the flames grow higher. Soon, the fire got out of control and the top branches of the tree were aflame. The fire began to spread. Noticing the impending danger, I quickly rushed downstairs and dashed out front to grab the long hose. After dropping it off at the backyard, I called the fire department. When asked for my location, I remembered that I couldn't remember my house address to save my life. I rushed outside and got a neighbour to call in (the funniness). When I'd gotten the hose ready, one of the neighbours quickly took charge of it and began a futile attempt to douse the flames with our single, pathetic jet of water. After trying for about 15 minutes, the firetruck arrived. My street is such that there is no clear road which leads round back (tsk tsk). The only way it seemed for the firefighters to reach the fire was through my house! I let them in, opened the gates and led them around the side of the house and through the back door. They began their work on the fire and soon, they'd doused the flames. The whole incident took about an hour and more to settle. While they were fighting the flames, others were ravaging the slum houses nearby the factory where the scumbags who started the fire supposedly lived. They'd made a run for it. No one was in sight. The scoundrels! The police and the other departments will be hearing of this one. I have 2 photos but I'll update them later.

Ha. Herofish somemore.

The weekend that was a dream (almost)

Ah, holidays it seems. Yeah right...

I volunteered to become a mentor in the Mentorship Malaysia Program under ARCCADE and right now (and even when I first signed up), I'm pretty sure I'm going to be on that shortlisted short list (it's a bitter-sweet thing). (*Poof*, my holidays go up in smoke.)

Went for training today. I woke up and hurried to college for the training session which was to begin at 9am. Lethargy. The only thing which consoled me about dragging my carcass out of bed that early on a holiday was a message from you.
Training was quite entertaining as I was put into a group with an animated character (Kok Wui) and I sure hope that we (my team) get along well and do a good job.
I forgot to smoke this morning (gah!). That probably was one of the causes of the lethargy and almost lackadaisically for the whole day. There are other reasons though. Anyway, the training was tiring, entertaining yet a drag.

Now, onto what was on the plus side (and yet on the minus as well). Last weekend was probably one of the most amazing ones I've had since 1986. The only other time I'd felt like I was in a fairytale or storybook was when I wasn't sober. I never knew anything quite like that. I never thought that could happen to me. I never knew. I never knew that the song could exist in such beauty and encompass such a sweet train of memories. Till you.
Sure the Sunday was a kink downwards but I'm here. I'm ready to provide what I can. You can get through this.
The human creature is one that makes mistakes. We learn from them, we learn.

Time is not our luxury yet so treasure it we must. Time will come around, patience will pay off, what we are will endure. I'm waiting.

You doomed thief, damned robber...

Over, For Me At Least.

Today I woke up to one of the wierder dreams I have every now and then. Oddly enough I remember the content. It was something like a cross of a scene from Thief III, Prison Break and Counter-Strike. Woke up to getting shot in the left shoulder. I woke up to find that I'd overslept and I had numbed both my arms and my left shoulder felt like it had been shot. I was supposed to get up to finish up studying for my Social Psychology final later today (at 2pm). I planned to wake up at like 4am but woke up at about 5 something instead only to read 3-4 pages and finally give up and decide to go back to bed for about an hour or so.

Woke up to JoA's message. I'd missed the message I got from the Fuz about 4 minutes earlier. I didn't hear the alarm again. Bloody hell. We were following JoA to college again. After packing up my stuff for futsal, I left home. Off to college.

When we got to college, went for some breakfast and then went to a study room in Wisma Help.
Finals are over. At least for me. I seem to be the only one (other than Stef) who's finished with his/her finals. Everyone still has at least one more paper. Advertising Copywriting went averagely well and today's paper was quite decent. Managed to finish just in time (with 2 minutes to spare).

After the exams, we all adjourned at the ground floor of the building and what ensued was pure confusion. I didn't know who was joining us for futsal and people who were supposed to come suddenly couldn't make it. By this time, my head was throbbing, I was as hungry as a horse and was really really tired (oh, and did I mention I was antsy to get onto the pitch). Once again we were late (for futsal). There was a serious jam towards Subang. Apparently there was an accident. Must've been bad. Hope everyone's alright. Well, when we arrived on the (futsal) scene, we found there were only 7 of us in total. We had to resort to playing with a bunch of strangers who were just sitting around, waiting for their friends to arrive. The only name I could remember was Jack (I still have that problem with names, old habits do die hard ==). It was fun today apart from the part where JoA got kapow-ed in the temple by the ball with quite some force (Loretta, chill lmao). The guys we played with were good (at least better than me). It was odd how I was short of breath less than 5 minutes into the game. I wonder what happened. Maybe I was tired.
Picture from IStockphoto.

Afterwards, we went on to have dinner at a Chinese hawker stall and then all of us went our separate ways. I left my phone in JoA's car. The horror!

N.B. - My Kinda Angel ^^

Robots In The Sky

Today has been quite a dramatic day for me indeed. Woke up feeling like someone stuck a wooden stake into my left shoulder blade. Was going to meet Stef in college to study for exams next week. I finished up the project proposal's executive summary, printed and handed it up by about 2pm and not long after, left college to look for the office where I was going to have an interview for an internship. The lady over the phone couldn't even provide me with proper directions which led me to driving around the whole of Petaling Jaya's section 14 quite a number of times. I was almost being driven up the wall by lousy drivers and people who didn't know how to park their cars decently. Malaysian driving isn't something for the person with a bad temper nor is it for those of faint heart. I finally found the office I was supposed to go to and only realized that it was a job I dreaded. The lady there, Daphne, wanted to hire me as a full time sales rep. No, I didn't want to be a sales rep. I wanted a marketing or copywriting internship. Not become a peddler. After about 40 minutes (or was it an hour?) of faking interest, I finally found a way to tell Daphne I would get back to her. I felt pathetic. I was again cursing my way through traffic as I drove us towards Cineleisure because we were to watch Transformers with Loretta, Dong (yay, can call him that again) and Steph A.

We reached Cineleisure ahead of time (for the movie). Poor JoA was starving. So was I. After walking about looking for a proper, light meal, we finally decided on Kenny Rodgers. With some soup and some peaceful conversation, I soon began to cool off a little. Soon, the others joined us and before we knew it, we were headed towards the cinema. I'd left my wallet in the car so I walked off to the car park to grab it before someone smashed a window to grab my very fat but relatively empty wallet. During the walk to the car, my gut began to ache. It wasn't a toilet emergency, it was pain in it's purest form. I was wondering if it was appendicitis but I doubted it. Making my way to the cinemas, I found the bunch of them congregated at the waiting area of the cinema and soon we were seated in our spots, waiting for the movie to begin. I was in pain throughout the entire movie. The screaming pain in my gut wouldn't let up. Must've been gas or something.

Transformers was AWESOME! It's been a long long time since I've been able to come out of a movie cursing at how brilliant it was. I was never a fan of yellow but after Bumblebee, I'm beginning to like the colour a bit. Just a bit. In the past, I was like every other kid who watched transformers and adored Optimus Prime. After watching that movie, my favourite character is DEFINITELY Bumblebee! That cheeky sense of humour and choice of music he has is so lovable!! All you Transformer fans out there, this one is definitely a must-watch. No kidding. I agree Spiderman and X-Men were horrible but this is definitely something which will impress your pants off. Personally, I felt that the cars in that movie were more impressive than what you'd see in 2Fast2Furious (didn't watch Tokyo Drift).

After the awesome movie, we decided to go to William's for dinner. I was still in pain but I guess the walking helped calm my guts down a little. It still hurt but it wasn't as bad as it was during the movie. Ivy joined us for dinner. A pleasant surprise. Dinner was good. Not too filling since we all shared food. After dinner, we chilled out a little then I had to go.

That was basically my Friday. It started off a little bumpy but the movie was so brilliant that it turned the day around for the better (yes, it was that good).

NB - Bear. It will all work itself out somehow. Have a little faith. Wish I was there. But I'm still here. Always.

A Little Bit of Heart-Music

The Fear You Won't Fall
Joshua Radin

Diggin a hole & the walls are caving in
behind me,
airs gettin thin but im trying, im breathing in
come find me

it hasnt felt like this before
it hasnt felt like home..before you

And I know its easy to say, but its harder to feel this way
And I miss you more than I should, than I thought I could,
I cant get my mind off of you.

I know your scared that
I'll soon be over it,
thats part of it all
part of the beauty of falling in love with you,
is the fear you wont fall

it hasnt felt like this before
it hasnt felt like home..before you

And I know its easy to say, but its harder to feel this way
And I miss you more than I should, than I thought I could,
I cant get my mind off of you.

and I hate the phone, but I wish you'd call
thought being alone, was better than, was better than...

And I know its easy to say, but its harder to feel this way
And I miss you more than I should, than I thought I could,
I cant get my mind off of you.

cant get my mind off of you,

And I know its easy to say, but its harder to feel this way
And I miss you more than I should, than I thought I could,
I cant get my mind off of you.

This song is so painful. I had looping for 2 hours last night.
Really painful. It was also one of the songs which Marylee & Kevin
played during BBQ.

What you will never know.

You look, but you don't see me.
I see you clear as day.
Day by day.
I watch you as you smile, how your eyes smile.
I watch my heart in your pocket. I watch it melt,
I watch it shatter and break.

You listen, but you don't hear me.
I hear you all about.
When you're near.
I hear you laugh, how your voice lifts me.
I listen to you as you speak, I listen silently.
I listen to my mind speak your name, over and over.
I am driving myself mad.

Pass by me. Walk through me. But never with me.
I reach out to you. I never make it.
I can never make it. You are too far. Too far.
I must let you go. I need to forget you.
You must never know. This pain I face,
Must always be my own. You do not deserve this.
Only I do. I let myself fall so hard.

I'm turning my back on you.
You will never know.
I will never know what it would be like,
To gaze into your eyes looking into mine.
To hold you. To play with your hair. To be yours.
I will never know. You must never know. I must let go.
At the very least, I must keep my pain to myself and only myself.

For those who understand this, comment but please do not ask questions. As for those who don't understand, just leave it be. The nature of the topic is such. Apologies.

The BBQ Nite

Today was the day that we were preparing for. Went up to Subang to meet up with Shaun & Loretta to get some final jamming done. They went pretty well. After we'd finished that up, we went to pick JoA up. The guys wanted to have lunch so we did. After lunch, we went for some CS. Somehow, I managed to top-frag today. We got bored of CS after a while. We turned to Starcraft! It's been too long. I was pretty much playing the game myself till I noticed that Shaun had gotten wiped out. Then I somehow beat Loretta (haha). We just figured out we could play Diablo 2 when we had to leave (sigh).

On the way towards HUC where we (The Brotherhood of the Pink Ribbon), were to perform tonight for the BBQ Nite. We passed by a toppled car on the way. Oddest of oddities. There was an opened man-hole cover, the cops, the toppled car but no driver in sight, no skid marks, no broken glass, nothing. Odd. On reaching the foyer, where it was all going to happen, I was greeted with a voice which I never knew existed. Mary Lee. Amazing. She has such an amazing voice. Never thought that she could sing. Such talent.

When it came to our turn to do a sound check, we were asked to play a number. We chose the medley. The freaking medley. I emo-ed by just listening to the introduction of the first song. I have no idea why but something was off with the Chinese song. Well, after our sound check, I was just constantly emo-ing and when the performances began, the songs they played only intensified my emotions. Mary Lee & Kevin's performance was just so powerful. They were all mellow and soft songs but their choice of songs just plucked at my heart-strings like an eager harp. They did so well. Up next was Kingsley. I've heard some of Kingsley's songs before and he played the sweetest of songs for his girlfriend. They were so sweet.

We were up next. I was so nervous. From the beginning of the first song I felt like I needed to stand up but I kept in my seat. I guess it might've been obvious because I was a little fidgety. Really, I felt this absurd tingling in my chest. That happens everytime I get evaluation apprehension (go grab a psychology handbook :P). We sang the medley, I'm Yours, You & Me and wrapped the show up with When You Say Nothing At All. The Chinese song was wierd all over again. I don't know why. Maybe I was too emo-ed. To make myself feel better, I tried my hand at some one-liners to keep the crowd smiling. It worked, their laughter settled me a bit but I was still tingling. By the time we came to our last song, I couldn't take it any longer. I decided that I'd sing the last one standing up. Although this was probably the only song with mistakes by me and Shaun, this was probably the only song of the night where the audience actually sang along with a volume which could be heard. I'm glad I caught the crowd's attention. It took me long enough (==). I think people liked our performance. I'm glad they did. I glad we did it.

After the performance (since we were the last) the acoustics were all over. Friends were praising me left and right, I couldn't take it, not even in my normal state, let alone in my emo state. I need to learn how to accept compliments better. Really it's embarassing to act like a kid when I get them from people I'm not very close to all the time.
[Note: I'm not bragging, quite few people did come up to me with lines like "OMG you have such a nice voice..." and "You were brilliant Wayne!!"]

After playing some of the games organized by the council, we (a whole bunch of us: Loretta, Shaun, JoA, Munn, The Fuz, JoJo, Bunny, Yi Yang, Ivy, Kristy & Deon) went off to Murni's to grab some grub since Loretta & I didn't eat anything. Had a hard time trying to finish what I ordered (Napoleon Fried Rice - Fried Rice w/ fries, keropok & cordon bleu). The fact that I kept bursting out in laughter every minute didn't help with digestion at all either. At long last I finished my food and watched as Loretta didn't (he ordered the same thing I did, haha).

When we were done with the food, JoJo, The Fuz, Loretta & myself went off to play some CS while the others left for home. CS wasn't fun. We were too far apart to have any real fun. I was emo-ing all the way now. I had a window-seat at the cybercafe. Whenever I had the time, I'd look out the window and just emo... After about an hour and a half, Loretta had to leave so we all did.

And that ended a pretty interesting day indeed. Still Emo.