On This Day...

21. A year older and to most, this is a special year. I'm not too sure about that. It's the entrance into my third decade of my journey in life. I've made it this far.

Life has given me its share of ups and down but tonight, it's given me quite a little bit of a twist of feelings of joy tainted with a wracking feeling of dread.

I would like to direct my thanks towards my friends, Bishan, Bryan, Bunny & Joel, Dong, Kok Wui, Fuzzy & Aileen. You people are really too kind. I thank you for the time you have spent with me and all that we share. A birthday without friends like you would mean nothing and would be just another day to myself. However with you people around it really does seem to mean a whole lot more. I would also like to dedicate my hearty thanks, my innermost appreciation to You. You, You and only You are all I want, all that I adore.

I had a really good time tonight. I really did. But in the corner of my mind, a feeling of dread proved to grow and impact me in full force later into the night. My grandmother returned from the hospital, she was visiting my aunt. I noticed something amiss as she walked past all the guests about in front of the house with her hanging head. I followed them into the lounge and decided to now discover why my grandmother was in tears. It was apparent, my aunt wasn't doing so well. This was exactly what I dreaded.

Sometimes the irony of how life in two different scenes can be so different from one another, sometimes even to the extent of being polar opposites. I bear both the joy and pain for myself. I share some, I may even show some, but it's all mine to take. As animated as I can be, there are times when I fail to show enough emotion. Sometimes too overwhelmed to show joy and at other times, too taken aback to portray my dread. Sometimes it is just beyond expression, when both ends are pulling at me.

I am thankful for what I have and I also feel sorry for what I might not have soon. It would seem that once again I am subject to what Life has to offer. I have no choice but try to make the best of it and try to be the best I can be.

P.S - Thank you for the Pink.
P.P.S. - Legal Age. Hoo!
P.P.P.S. - I adore You.