What you will never know.

You look, but you don't see me.
I see you clear as day.
Day by day.
I watch you as you smile, how your eyes smile.
I watch my heart in your pocket. I watch it melt,
I watch it shatter and break.

You listen, but you don't hear me.
I hear you all about.
When you're near.
I hear you laugh, how your voice lifts me.
I listen to you as you speak, I listen silently.
I listen to my mind speak your name, over and over.
I am driving myself mad.

Pass by me. Walk through me. But never with me.
I reach out to you. I never make it.
I can never make it. You are too far. Too far.
I must let you go. I need to forget you.
You must never know. This pain I face,
Must always be my own. You do not deserve this.
Only I do. I let myself fall so hard.

I'm turning my back on you.
You will never know.
I will never know what it would be like,
To gaze into your eyes looking into mine.
To hold you. To play with your hair. To be yours.
I will never know. You must never know. I must let go.
At the very least, I must keep my pain to myself and only myself.

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